Lyn and P.G. on their wedding day. March 7, 1943.
The very difficult part is that I am 250 miles away and don't know what is happening minute to minute. I had things to keep me busy yesterday but the entire day was tempered with the thought of what was happening to Dad. I kept it at arm's length. Yesterday. Today I have felt on the verge of tears. My head keeps me doing what needs doing. My heart see trees budding and hopes that Dad will live to see another spring. To see his 69th wedding anniversary in March. No doctor or other person has said he is dying. Yet. In the back of my mind. I know he will not live forever.
I feel like I am walking at a 45 degree angle. I am going on with the day but it is just off slightly. I need to put clean sheets on the bed. Dad's heart is working at about 25% its capacity. Red beans and rice for supper. The doctor wants to make him comfortable. I need to go by the cabinet shop. They started heparin in his IV last night. Its hard to walk like this. With this knot in my heart and everything at such an angle. This morning he only weighed 153 pounds. My sweet, sweet Daddy. My little Daddy.
Mom and Dad on the occasion of her 90th birthday. September 15, 2010.
My brain hurts from being tilted.